The silent assassin

women

First off my condolences to Virginia Tech. It was really shitty and I am really sorry for the students that lost their lives in this mindless act of violence.
So, after today I can say that I might have really made a mistake. There is a girl I work with, very nice, great personality, but there is absolutely no spark of physical attraction at all. Now this would be harmless except for the fact that I guess I said I liked talking to her, and now everyone at work wants to hook us up. I don't really want to hook up but I'm sure that soon enough I will have to make a choice that I really don't want to make. I don't mean to be shallow but doesn't there need to be some actual physical attraction in a relationship. I mean there needs to be a balance between personality and attraction. I just don't know what to say when the time comes, especially when I have no excuse not to. I just feel that there are a few other girls out there that I am attracted to that I actually get the feeling of attraction. Hell one of these 4 girls ( I think they know) even goes to mines. The only reason I haven't pursued anything is because they are all friends and I don't really want to make my friendships awkward because I said something that wasn't taken very well. I tried it before and it ended in a great date, but it made everything awkward. I would ideally like to have a reason to say no to the girl at work just because while she is a great friend, there isn't a spark and that is kinda a little important.

On another note I was told that apparently I never try to go out on dates. I was talking with a roommate who said he had some spare time next semester and I told him that he should go and try to find a girlfriend. Now there is a girl that he is close friends with ( but not dating... yet) and I think she took offense to the comment because she told me that I need to go looking way before he does. I have been looking, but the problem is that I can't say anything because my track record in dating is shit. A few isolated dates that always end up in the rejection. I don't get why because I don't think that I have really done anything horrible. I really just need someone to explain to me what I did wrong that I can be dated but not really as a boyfriend. I didn't respond to her comment, but it isn't that I'm not trying, it is that I am shy, and when I do try to finally try dating I seem to always get shot down after 1 date. I guess it is just the unwritten law that I am not datable. I don't know but any suggestions are welcome?

Peace and Love
Jens

posted by J @ 7:05 PM