Wednesday, October 19, 2005

wow

Well I don't know where to start now that so much has happened. Basically I haven't had the motivation to write because of all of the damn work. I can say that now I know what it feels like to go to mines. There isn't a day that I have to just relax. Mostly it's physics, but not always. This year I am learning the importance of "el confidante". What I mean to say by that is that I am realizing now that it is important to have one person that you can tell anything. You know, the one person that you can talk to and never worry about what you confess. I have only had these conversations three times in my life, and now it sucks when I need to just relax and talk with someone, but everyone I talk to I feel like I have to put up a guard to hide that I am crumbling inside. I never thought I would begin to lose my confidante after the last time, but with no one to really understand that I feel weaker than ever, I try to hold my composure, for as long as I can. My good friend will probably go to jail in a month which sucks, and I hate the fact that I can't stop it. I also cant help but think that physics might be a retake for me. In news I have started to build a custom computer because I am fed up with my dell. Also Debiase pleaded guilty to several counts of sexual assault by a person in a position of trust. He will get sentenced sometime in December, poor guy. Anyway peace
Jens

ps. does anyone want to get the crew together to go to haunted houses sometime? just a suggestion