I wish I were in Mexico
I have decided that I should be in Mexico because I am very tired of snow. Not snowboarding, mind you but just the snow in general. I am also tired of being the responsible one all the time. It is nice to have almost everything working for me now, but sometimes people need a break. I just want to get away, go out to the clubs drink and meet women. My roommates say I need to get laid, and I can only agree. The only things that I have really done is start playing the guitar, snowboarding, going to dinners, and going to the sex shop ( yes it sucks being bored). It is really a new feeling of restlessness. Everything is working, but so far it all is so little that I can only crave something really intense. Imagine for a minute that you have 20 some odd objective in the workings, but nothing has really happened with anything. Don't get me wrong, it is fun, but just a little dull when everything starts, but nothing really progresses that fast. Right now I'll just try to keep myself from being bored, any suggestions on things to do or try I'm all ears?
Love always
Jens
lovely isolation
you ever have that feeling of being all alone. I have decided that it kinda sucks, being the oddball out . It is fun for a while until no one seems to get you. no one understands why I have a lot of respect for women. No one seems to understands when I tell them that there is a difference between sex and love. Most people now want to see me get laid, because well they think I need it. I can understand the point, but unfortunately there is something that I was told way back by a friend who had more women than I care to count. Of them all he says that it is by far the best thing to have the first person be the one that means something to you. Then i didn't really understand, but well it makes a lot of sense. There is a definite line between sex and love. Love is something that can't be bought. Love means more than anything else. In addition people think I should start getting numbers. It has never been my thing, especially because well being shy and it just feels wrong to ask out of the blue. Definitely not something I got from my mom. It just leaves my torn because I understand what my friends want to do, and I think they might be right, but I just cant reconcile these two opposing views in my mind. it really sucks to be indecisive but feel that a decision must be made. Being alone kinda sucks, but I just can't bring myself to cross the threshold. What is certain now is that I have work in the morning and staying up isn't going to help me all that much. How do you tell someone from the shadows that you love them. Showing no emotion has its benefits, but after awhile they build up. I really wish that people would just tell you how they feel so that even if they were pissed, you wouldn't have to bite your damn tongue and hide how you really feel.
I know that made no sense, but it will only mean something to a few people so have fun. Cryptic, it's how I roll, but I was serious if you know what I mean. oh and I am probably starting tango lessons soon, a little longer for guitar.
Baby, you may hate me, but know that I am always here for you and I always will be. God I hate being shy
Love always
Your Jensipoo
good fun
So I'm finally back to Golden and so far I think my classes are going to be fun. A little work, but that goes with engineering. Things are finally changing though, and I for one couldn't be happier. Work is getting easier to get up for, and for some reason I seem to have so much more enthusiasm and energy. I also decided that I have four major goals for the year. The first is to take up tango and salsa and tango ( the dances i like because they actually have a lot of movement and vibe to them) I probably will go by myself, unless I can find someone to go with. It is just something that I always wanted to try. Second, I want to take up guitar. It is really fun, and between learning a little at work and experimenting on my mom's poorly tuned guitar, I think it is an instrument that I can actually learn to play . It also helps that I really enjoy it. At my house the best I can get right now is guitar hero II which helps in the speed aspect of fingering, but it doesn't help accuracy much. It is really addictive though. Third, I want to finally get up to the mountains and get back to my boarding. I would have went over break, but I couldn't actually leave my house thanks to the FINE job that Denver does plowing. Seriously I want that job, sit on my ass get paid to say I plowed the streets and in the end I get rewarded with a party for my shitty job. Sign me up! I am very sick of snow if you couldn't tell. I will go snowboarding on Saturday provided I can get up there. If you want to come, call me up and let me know. My final goal is to finally get laid. Not the best goal, and probably the one that I won't fulfill, but it is sad when everyone but me and one other person have someone. I am finally getting better at taking to women ( only 20 years to learn). It is hard to do anything at mines because, well come up here and find out for yourself. I guess I should explain that when I say get laid, I don't mean exactly that, but rather that I really need someone to just chill with and have fun. Roommates and friends are fine for the most part, but sometimes there is definitely something that is left to be desired. Well so much for my antics I'll talk to everyone later for now I'm going to look up close dance lessons
Peace and Love always
Jens
P. S. Why dose no one seem to write anymore?
