Going to class
Interesting past 2 days. Let me explain, Yesterday I had a BS class at the end of the day. So I was supposed to make a rehearsal presentation for design. The team decided that it would be smart to arrive an hour early to get everything together. I did and as we went in to present our senile, idiot teacher ( Megan I am starting to see your point) Says that she screwed up and there isn't enough time. She goes on to say that we have to rehearse Monday at 4:30 which would have been nice except we have computer classes and we won't be able to get out early. We also have the a paper that was supposed to be due Wednesday due on Monday. Consequentially I have a meeting tomorrow and won't be able to drive to Boulder or if I do it will be around 5. Today I had the privilege ( or curse) of having a 15 minute-3 hour class. See last week I worked six hours in chemistry to get ahead. Now I was going to be done today, but the work that I am doing requires a week settling time. I made a solution in 15 minutes and couldn't go any farther. Very frustrating work. I can only pray for the weekend to end my week of boredom. Oh on a side note: if anyone needs to call me or has tried to call me please leave a message. I got a call in calc that was untraceable and no message so if you leave a message I will hit you back
Peace and Love
Jens
Boredom leaves one tired and restless
I have spent this week so far by relaxing. I have done this not because I chose to relax, but because there is simply nothing to do. The exact reason that I stay off campus during the weekend: boredom. It seems to have found itself into my weekly activities. After playing video games, updating my music files, and doing little bits of homework that come my way, I am left with nothing to do. I am not saying that it is bad, it just leaves a lot to be desired. I really can't wait for the weekend so that I can have something to occupy my time. The one thing that I dislike more than failure and loss is having nothing to do. I hate a stagnate environment. For the time being I think that in order to recover from this week I might get out to boulder Thursday or Friday simply because there has to be more activity there than here. I think that I will try to entertain myself by music tonight to fight off the boredom.
Anyway
Peace and Love
Jens Jensen
Marriage
NO this has nothing to do with me. This was one of the later " epiphany's " that I had during my weekend of interesting thought. I realized why the divorce rate is so high in America. I was watching TV and a the comedian that I was watching made the point that marriage vows come when sex is often and good. I spent 12 years in a Catholic schools and among the things I learned, I was taught through a WAIT class that sex is meant for after marriage. I might not live up to this ( although I have good in part to circumstances, a sad thing to admit as a guy even though I was/am a player of sorts) But that was the teaching. Then it dawned on me, people probably 2 generations older that me ( and luckily my parents) were raised on this teaching. Sex was never made to be the basis of a relationship, but people who were drilled that it was mandatory to wait married for the person for the person. They made relationships based on real love, and since no sex was involved, it didn't matter if it was part of the relationship or not. It would be a concept worth looking into. It is really funny when love begins to mean something, and it is that love that I have always understood as real. When you love someone, you will do whatever and that is why love is ultimately a compromise. On that note I just realized something, what is it with black and Asian women that make people crush so much( guilty)? Only really cared once but it seems that in terms of being a player I follow that pattern and crush a lot.
Can't explain it but hey, do how you do.
To all my G's and ladies out there
Peace and Love
Jens , The Scorpion King
Some *ssholes
This is the second post that I had time to think about this weekend.
Warning: DO NOT READ THIS IF YOU ARE EASILY OFFENDED. I REALIZE THAT PEOPLE MIGHT DISAGREE WITH ME ON THIS POST BUT THIS IS ONLY MY OPINION. THANK YOU
Now then I am writing this post to vent some of my more opinionated comments. I would like to start by mentioning that the only reason that I put the warning is so that is some idiot who doesn't know me manages to read this I don't want them to decide that they were offended and get some crooked lawyer who doesn't believe in free speech to try anything. I was reading a story like this is the news just recently. Some ***** decided to SUE two neighborhood girls who were placing cookies on front porches to be Nice. Yes they were practicing kindness and this woman apparently had to go to the hospital because they Rang the DOORBEll and she feared for her life and had to be taken to the hospital as a result. The sad part, the dumb lady was in the house with other people and it wasn't even really dark. My question is I don't believe that someone who has ill-will generally alerts you to their presence. Ding- Dong Yes I am going to rob you but I thought you should come down to see me beforehand. The other sad part, A lawyer actually took her case. I am sick of these people who are too damn lazy to actually work so they feel that it is ok to be a parasite on legititimate business and individuals who actually work hard to make a living. And these lawyers who actually say ' hey I like screwing hard working people out of their money, count me in' These people make good people scared to actually be kind because they might get sued for trying to be kind. I don't want to have to tell my children about how I remember back in the day when it was ok to make a kind gesture. " Yes children I remember a time when people actually worked and cared for one another." I would like to point out that I don't criticize all lawyers here only those who take B.S. cases like these.
On a different note I would like to congratulate all those who commit suicide . Not that I think suicide is good, but if you really felt that you couldn't put up with life, then you probably weren't strong enough to live anyway. Your spot on this planet will be filled by someone who can be a productive member of society. I DON'T encourage suicide, as I have contemplated it myself. I thank all of my friends and family though because I realized that you all supported me and cared I don't want to go to that place again. When you feel that you have lost everything, it is good to find that you still have something to cling to. The last point that I would like to touch on is preppy people. In order to not repeat what has been said, I just wonder what it must feel like to be exactly like everyone else?
Peace
JJ Scorpion King
The problem of overthinking
So here is the base for this post: This weekend I was sick and I was at home. During this time I have had time to think about many things and so I have this post and at least two others that come as a result of too much time thinking. That brings me to this post
One of the things that has always been on my shoulders, and that few people know is that I hate the tendency that I have to overthink things. That isn't really a problem except for the fact that it is this that has made me be reserved and silent when my mind was screaming for me to go forward. It's like having a little voice ( don't worry I don't hear voices) that conflicts itself. One example that I have had was years ago in the mountains. It was eight grade retreat and I wanted to tell someone how I really felt about the current situation we were in. I really did, but in my head I was already overthinking what consequences would come to our relationship as a result of what needed to be said. I never opened my mouth when it counted and ultimately destroyed whatever ties we had. The horrible thing is that this tendency plaques everything I say and do. I get to a point and say the risk to what is is too great and I almost always regret not saying what I wanted to or doing what I really wanted. I am sorry to anyone who has also hesitated as a result of my hesitation. My biggest regret that I have the not knowing what would have actually happened had I been strong enough to accept the consequences of saying what was really going through my mind. My old friend from TJ was right in saying that some things just need to be done and not really overthought. Can't change the past though so...
Peace Jens Jensen
Thank God it's over
Well, sorry for not writing anything other than the personal article this week. Just so we're clear I wrote that article when I was meditating to music so it came more from the heart that logic. I'll try that more often, it was a blast to write. I haven't written in a while because this week has proven to be more stressful than I ever planned on. Test and labs, and just about everything in the past 4 days. On a happy note I kicked my calculus test's ass. All I have to say about that is it is about damn time. Today I had a 3 hour quant lab for 6 hours because my results last week sucked and I had to redo the test. Now however I am , if not a little ahead, at least done to where I am supposed to be. I have also been sick this week which sucks. I can't talk above a whisper and I have the chills from time to time. I did switch to firefox this week and I must say that it is 100% better internet than IE. In response to " the village idiot" My friends status is unknown at this time, and the article wasn't related to that however. Happy SAD to everyone
Peace and Love
Jens Jensen
And so I sit, staring blankly into a computer screen, thinking about you. I think of all the fun times that we had, the fun, the joy, and the hard times. Thinking about how you were always by my side always ready to stand by me. Sure I was stupid at times and silent when there was so much that needed to be said. But the past can not change the present, and so I sit thinking about you, saddenend evermore by time. So close, yet so far. Though I can't change time and can't change what did or didn't happen, You are always with me in my memories.
Crappy Holidays
So, walking back from my chemistry lab that I didn't have, I came upon an interesting banner on the bulletin board. Apparently our college supports the high school mentality of valentine date auctions. Ignoring the fact that it might have some legitimate use at mines because the guy/girl ratio sucks, I thought that it was still a high school practice. After arriving at my dorm it hit me, isn't valentine's day a BS holiday anyway. I realized that, while being single on valentines sucks, I have gotten use to it and it must really suck to have a date for valentines. I say this because hallmark made a holiday in which guys feel obligated to buy roses and other meaningless crap. So I therefore have a solution based on personal experience for all of the guys out there. I have only been in love with 4 girls in my lifetime, and I learned that every time LOVE HAS NOTHING TO DO WITH TIME. Love is a feeling that is an everyday thing. Therefore if you really care about a girl, every time that you are together should be cherished, and expressions of love should not be more prevalent 1 day a year. If this doesn't apply to you then the other advice I have is remember this there is nothing wrong with a little "bump and grind" I just think that, if you really are in love, there is no reason for Valentine's day.
Peace and Love
Jens
Sleep inducing caffeine?
I have come to the conclusion that I need to drink a lot less caffeine in a day than I do. I found this out after finishing 6 cans of pop and feeling incredibly tired at the end of the day. I don't think that a long, cold day helped me much either but... When you fail to focus on anything specific at the end of your day it is a bad thing. I did manage to get all of my homework done, but I feel like I took nyQuil, or something equivalent. On another note I apologize for not posting any pictures, but I have to wait before I can get more pictures. I really need sleep now, so I guess I will call it a night early and get rest for chem lab tomorrow. Peace and love
Jens
Back up and running
Hey, I'm finally back at home, well school at least. I hope that everyone is fine. My week just seems to collect more work as it goes on. I haven't started yet, but when my roommate reminded me about map making I said "dam". More work and it doesn't help when the library conviently closes at 10. Anyway This weekend I managed to go snowboarding again this weekend. Good times, but now I have to deal with the boredom of mines for yet another week. I find it ironic that I have a lot of work to do and yet I still find myself bored at night. I don't generally write about the current events but, I find it interesting that I have found myself listening to music recently to relax. Suprisingly enough I find that the slower, more romantic songs work so much better when relaxing than anything else. Maybe I'm weird but these songs should be saddening and disheartening to a retired player who missed out in the search for the life of fun and relaxing. They always say that reflection sucks, but it seems to work when you need to find out how to get where your going. Peace
Jens
Relief at last!!!
Hell yeah. I am finally free for the rest of the week. Done with Chemistry and everything. I think that I did really well on the test which is good. I will say that it has been a hell of a week. Really fun and there was no really boring moments. A personal shot out to everyone who was here to have a great time. From snowboarding to the party to paintballing. A new job made yesterday hectic, and today was strictly chemistry. If anyone wants to do anything this weekend or tomorrow night just give me a call and I'll figure it out. This weekend is definitly time for a holiday. Last night I was drained and passed out around 9 so... Time for some R&R for a couple of days.
Peace and Love everyone
Jens
Housekeeping Memorandum
Don't question the the title but here is what I throw out to everyone. I would e-mail everyone, but I can't get to everyone that way. Anyway I was was wondering if everyone would like to get together sometime Friday or Saturday evening. I don't really know what we could do, but if everyone wants to, I could ask my parents if it would work( it probably would). If not then I hope that everyone is doing well and that everyone is still alive. ( sorry Raven, I had to throw that in). Peace
Jens
Procrastination and indecisiveness
This week has been one of the best weeks ( and by far the busiest ) that I have had all semester. As of last Friday I had to get to Denver by 6 because I had dinner arrangements with my family and my Grandpa. It was really fun and Saturday was uneventful. Sunday was incredibly fun because I ( as most of you know) got to go snowboarding. Monday was typical class and the party was really fun. The people on my floor wondered why I disappeared last night but... well whatever. And now today I find my one really normal day and I start lifeguarding tomorrow. However, I also find myself writing when I should be doing various homework assignments. Tomorrow I go paintballing for the first time. It should be interesting. Now however I find myself doing what a good friend once told my never to do. I have come to the point where certain decisions that come in the near future are left to me decision on how I want to proceed. My friend always told my to be decisive in your words and actions. To be concise and certain. Second guessing never accomplishes anything, so I am going to sleep and collect my thoughts on what exactly what I want to do and follow accordingly. More on this Later .... Peace and Love
Jens Jensen
